Wednesday, December 24, 2008
? Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry outloud ¿
Christmas blues.
I will spend this Christmas eve, being all emotional at home.
I was supposed to meet J for more shopping & more photo-taking :[ Making me more upset than ever, something just have to happen. Fated, I guess
I remember that day when we had lunch together, the conversation between Marc & I..
G: How you know? How did you find out?M: Wah lau so obvious on your blog!
G: Oh can read ah, can don't link hor
M: Yeh, I didn't link you what!
G: CAN SAY AH!
*Jemi & I burst into laughter*
M: Oh oh oh!! *laughs*
I luv having lunch with my favourite people. Only if Shim weren't that tired from work the night before, she'd be there as well & it'll be picture perfect.
Yeh you're still favourite.
Westlife's Moments just have to come on on iTunes. What a right time.
The present for the girls & Yan arrived in the mail today :) Sho harpie. I will wrap them up nicely with a huge ass sticker that spells FRAGILE on it. I haven't gotten J's, xx's & mom & dad's present yet. I like what I got for the girls, Yan & x :) I think x will love it. I cannot wait to see they two again! They make me happy, even though it kinda make me sad in a way.
I cannot wait for Friday to come so I'd see the girls, I'd give them the presents, the boys & also the class! I like making people around me happy, whether I am happy or not.
Today, I will..
x finish Naidu's essay & start on Jailani's presentation.
x wrap the presents
x write the love note
x read the magazines I bought
x try not to cry because it's Christmas eve though I'm without you
x pack my new clothes aside so I wouldn't wear them until New Year
x think of my Christmas outfit before I go bed tonight
x sleep early so I will be wacky & crazy, all ready for a good long day with J tomorrow
x not countdown to Christmas because I have no Christmas feel at all
x have happy thoughts, nothing dirty, unhappy & unhealthy
x blog as & when I feel like it
x treasure every 2008 moment that is left
We'll see if I can do it ok. Kz till later, I will definitely blog again
Just save me a place between your sheets, and I'll let you make a mess out of me.
Labels: blockquote, conversation, daily life, random, wednesday
trick or treat? @ 5:55 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
? Your heart is tired of feeling, your hand is letting go of mine ¿
Forgetting all the memories, try to forget love cause love's forgotten me.
I am really tired & I just got home from the funeral. I had a extremely long & draining day :(
I FINISHED READING TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!! :D
Fast or what? I finished it within a week! I'm gonna buy New Moon tomorrow, cannot frikkin' wait.
So Jems & I skipped the first half of SBS tutorial.
To you:
'Late late late'? I guess we don't need that, especially it coming from you. Who are
you to say that anyway? Do you have a problem with us being late,
attention-seeker?
Jems was this close to going up to him & just ask him what his bloody problem was.
We were dismissed at 11.30am so we fooled around in class! Blast music, play games, talk cock, flash YouTube on the screen. Left the school at 12 with Mat, Marc, Jems, Ray to take bus down to AnchorPoint to have lunch! Yay Thai food Thai food Thai food!! Makes me haaaappyyyyyyyy
MARC LEE CHUN KIT I CANNOT FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME TODAY. NOT ONCE BUT A FEW TIMES!! >:( Buying drink, the attire, teasing me almost all the time. Make sure you die jialat jialat I tell you. Dunch care if X is going to come after me. AND NOT FORGETTING WE ACCOMPANIED YOU TO IKEA TO BUY THE LITTLE SOMETHING FOR X HOR! Haiyer piss me off ahhhhhh
Kz but luv u the same 'cos you make me happy by being yourself, all retarded & etc :) HAPPY TIMES! Your favourite phrase.
We went back to class, about half an hour late. Discussed a little about project, joked around a lot with Kavin (the bloody bitch who prank called me!) & spoke to Lulu the qt. When Shim came at 3pm, class was dismissed. It was still early so we went to the void deck t lepak. Rushed home at 5pm, changed into a plain top & dad drove me down to the funeral. Played the dslite, had dinner & aunts came. TER IZ BACKKKKKKK :) :) :) Clubbing king is back & more handsome than ever omg! He looks good all the time, I swear. Just that he is back, he is already planning to go clubbing, organising parties. Fast or what? Merl & I talked throughout the night. Dad got Godma Sue to drive us back home first as it was late & I still have school tomorrow.
Muttons to Midnight is on, and seriously killing me with the lame Christmas jokes. Did I mention that I am very happy to meet Shufen for lunch tomorrow? I will also drop by PageOne to get New Moon, and prolly Diva? Teeheehee I'm off to bed now, toodles :)
P/s: I have to admit it. I miss J. More than I ever thought I would. This is the first time we've not met in two weeks after knowing each other for almost two years. So there,
mizz u j :)
I love you more than everything else in the world combined.
Labels: anger, daily life, school, tuesday
trick or treat? @ 11:29 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
? Love is such a flexible term, you never really know what it means ¿
I am filled with you. Skin, blood, bone, brain, & soul.
Whoohoo there is no class tomorrow!! Yay I'm so happy 'cos we've decided to go Christmas shopping after school & class is cancelled yay yay yay! Something to add on to the happy list (:
Debate today was fabbbbbulous. Not that I am siding my own class but I think the guys did really well. Point proven! Gilbert & one of the speakers from dmcd2 almost fought. It was like a one-on-one, audience attacking the speakers. Gilbert shoot up for us & argued with her. The whole class was cheering & all that 'cos they look as though they were about to fight I swear!!!! It was damn exciting not because it's a fight but because................. :) But Naidu stopped them so bleahhhhh
The whole school is infested with bees. What the hell. Especially the trash bin areas! Marc kept disturbing us on the way to the canteen & the way back to the classroom. I swear it's all his fault we were so paranoid ok! We kept ducking when he did all that actions when actually, there is nothing flying around him at all. He just started laughing after seeing us being all retarded.
Dad came to pick me again today & it was just us both so we talked. I told him where we usually have lunch & all that. Even he agrees that this area don't have much places with good food we can choose from. I guess I got the whole appreciating good food genes from him. Then we talked about cars, houses (we always come to this topic whenever we're alone in the car) & money. Then, about life.
Dad: Eh.. be contented ah.
G: Ahhh yeh talk about being contented, I really should feel that way. I have a place to live in, new stuff to use, to wear. I don't have to worry if there's food tomorrow.
Dad: Tv programs showed you a lot. See how others have suffered, and some still suffering. That's why I always tell you girls to be contented. Have I not?
G: Mmhmmm I need to remind myself constantly about that, really.. And stop comparing others.
Dad: I am contented, yknow with all that I have right now. A car, a stable job, a flat I call my own, my family, you girls. I am very contented. Why compare? Compare only make you feel bad & terrible.
G: But daddy yknow sometimes it's so hard not to compare. C'mon look at my friends!! Condo, semi-d, bungalow, owns two cars, their own family business..
Dad: Girl, why compare? Her dad's rich, can afford but I'm sorry your dad is poor. What for compare? My customer is rich also, the one staying here (points to the semi-d). He is his own boss & he earns a lot. Why can't I be like him? (went out of the car to run some errands)
Dad: (came back and..) See, why others ride motorbike? Why don't buy car?
G: Cos cheap ma.
Dad: Because they cannot afford a car. Yeh some wanna save cost. Why others drive van, or trucks?
G: Cos of work lor.
Dad: I also can what. But I'm driving a car now. I have a flat. A happy family. A stable job. I am very contented, girl.
G: I should be, too..
Makes a lot of sense to me, all of a sudden.
I should be contented.
When I got home... MY $50 WORTH OF RINGS PACKAGE HAS FINALLY REACHED ME YAY!!!!!!!!!
So. Damn. Happy.
It was supposed to be here last week but it's okay. As long as it is here yay! I think I'm gonna wear them tomorrow. Not all but one probably :)
In the course of a month, not boasting but I've never experienced this or never expected this, I have about 7 people asking for my number. Is it luck or is it 'cos of the glow on me recently? But this definitely boost my confidence. Let's just take it that I've been glowing more than usual & that beauty products I used these few days is worth the money so I've grown prettier by this bit overnight. Whoa confidence level 89%!
At least a few things to feel happy about today :D
No, not the dream, it felt weird having the same storyline playing in a different setting though it felt right with you stranger. No not you being here, by my side now - in fact I think I don't need you anymore.
Kz I promise some pictures tomorrow, g'night everyone I'm gonna go call the sexy one now whoohoo!
Labels: blockquote, conversation, daily life, emotions, pictures, quotes, school, something meaningful, wednesday
trick or treat? @ 11:06 PM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
? I wish that you were near, it's better when you're here ¿
Hooray guess what mummy came home with!
Fedora, fringe bag & two name stamps :D
Dad: We'll go Beijing again next year
G: NO WAY please count me out ok no no no
(laughter)
Dad: Are you happy?
G: Yesssss *wide grins* of course
For one, they are back. Safely. Other than the fact that they are both scratching like hell due to the dry weather in Beijing that caused them to have rashes all over their bodies. For two, I got the two things I wanted!! And both in brown hehehe! Thanks mummy you're one in a million *hugs & kisses*
Mom: Oi got school tomorrow right? Aiyo you better go to bed! I almost forgot about it
(She came into the room again..)
Mom: Eh sleep hor, tomorrow got morning class right? Go to bed please, log off in awhile ah
G: Okay, goodnight mummy
(Closes the door behind her)
Zel: She like, miss us like that hor?
G: Duh, obvious right? I mean, who wouldn't?
You're so cute mom & I love you, I'm so glad you're home.
Dad went to shower, he came out & show us his purchase. All the watches & shoes, haha he's so funny. He displayed them on the coffee table & went like, "See see! My new watch!" Haha miss you la dad he sat on the sofa & hugged Zel, I thought it was so cute though I wished he'd hold me instead.... But honestly I know why he would do that to Zel but not me so it's fine. Luv him anywayz
I'm sad that Che is home now. No one to watch lame MVP until wee hours & that act cute Rainie Yang show with, no more trying to stay up 'til 7am for Mac's breakfast, no more late night Starbucks, no more butterfly prawns & corn soup & clam chowder. And also sad that Gran is going home soon :( :( I hope she stays I really hope she does. I want her to stay with us forever and ever & never return to that monster's house. Ahh am also sad that no more staying up 'til 5am in the morning just talking nonsense, no more blastin' r&b songs like we're clubbing at home with all light sticks on, no more showering at wee hours, no more showering 5x a day ('cos mom h8s it when I do that, gotta control myself), no more caramel frappe at least once a day, no more running around the house like idiotz at 3am, no more rolling on mama's bad without worrying that I will get scolded & the list could go on & on & on.....
BUT YES!!!!! Time for me to switch my body clock back to norm!!! I'm fucking happy about that ok I can't stand my limited edition only available in Singapore Gucci eye bags anymore. I don't care how much they cost but fuck it they make me ugly!!! :(
Two more days before J is home sweet home!
Time flies when you're having fun, no?
Ok goodnight my eyes are closing & class @ 9am tomorrow!
Constant reminder: Stranger stranger stranger x
There wasn't anything overly amazing about you, just something I couldn't resist.
Labels: daily life, photos, random, rant, tired, tuesday
trick or treat? @ 2:00 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
? Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry outloud ¿
Christmas blues.
I will spend this Christmas eve, being all emotional at home.
I was supposed to meet J for more shopping & more photo-taking :[ Making me more upset than ever, something just have to happen. Fated, I guess
I remember that day when we had lunch together, the conversation between Marc & I..
G: How you know? How did you find out?M: Wah lau so obvious on your blog!
G: Oh can read ah, can don't link hor
M: Yeh, I didn't link you what!
G: CAN SAY AH!
*Jemi & I burst into laughter*
M: Oh oh oh!! *laughs*
I luv having lunch with my favourite people. Only if Shim weren't that tired from work the night before, she'd be there as well & it'll be picture perfect.
Yeh you're still favourite.
Westlife's Moments just have to come on on iTunes. What a right time.
The present for the girls & Yan arrived in the mail today :) Sho harpie. I will wrap them up nicely with a huge ass sticker that spells FRAGILE on it. I haven't gotten J's, xx's & mom & dad's present yet. I like what I got for the girls, Yan & x :) I think x will love it. I cannot wait to see they two again! They make me happy, even though it kinda make me sad in a way.
I cannot wait for Friday to come so I'd see the girls, I'd give them the presents, the boys & also the class! I like making people around me happy, whether I am happy or not.
Today, I will..
x finish Naidu's essay & start on Jailani's presentation.
x wrap the presents
x write the love note
x read the magazines I bought
x try not to cry because it's Christmas eve though I'm without you
x pack my new clothes aside so I wouldn't wear them until New Year
x think of my Christmas outfit before I go bed tonight
x sleep early so I will be wacky & crazy, all ready for a good long day with J tomorrow
x not countdown to Christmas because I have no Christmas feel at all
x have happy thoughts, nothing dirty, unhappy & unhealthy
x blog as & when I feel like it
x treasure every 2008 moment that is left
We'll see if I can do it ok. Kz till later, I will definitely blog again
Just save me a place between your sheets, and I'll let you make a mess out of me.
Labels: blockquote, conversation, daily life, random, wednesday
trick or treat? @ 5:55 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
? Your heart is tired of feeling, your hand is letting go of mine ¿
Forgetting all the memories, try to forget love cause love's forgotten me.
I am really tired & I just got home from the funeral. I had a extremely long & draining day :(
I FINISHED READING TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!! :D
Fast or what? I finished it within a week! I'm gonna buy New Moon tomorrow, cannot frikkin' wait.
So Jems & I skipped the first half of SBS tutorial.
To you:
'Late late late'? I guess we don't need that, especially it coming from you. Who are
you to say that anyway? Do you have a problem with us being late,
attention-seeker?
Jems was this close to going up to him & just ask him what his bloody problem was.
We were dismissed at 11.30am so we fooled around in class! Blast music, play games, talk cock, flash YouTube on the screen. Left the school at 12 with Mat, Marc, Jems, Ray to take bus down to AnchorPoint to have lunch! Yay Thai food Thai food Thai food!! Makes me haaaappyyyyyyyy
MARC LEE CHUN KIT I CANNOT FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME TODAY. NOT ONCE BUT A FEW TIMES!! >:( Buying drink, the attire, teasing me almost all the time. Make sure you die jialat jialat I tell you. Dunch care if X is going to come after me. AND NOT FORGETTING WE ACCOMPANIED YOU TO IKEA TO BUY THE LITTLE SOMETHING FOR X HOR! Haiyer piss me off ahhhhhh
Kz but luv u the same 'cos you make me happy by being yourself, all retarded & etc :) HAPPY TIMES! Your favourite phrase.
We went back to class, about half an hour late. Discussed a little about project, joked around a lot with Kavin (the bloody bitch who prank called me!) & spoke to Lulu the qt. When Shim came at 3pm, class was dismissed. It was still early so we went to the void deck t lepak. Rushed home at 5pm, changed into a plain top & dad drove me down to the funeral. Played the dslite, had dinner & aunts came. TER IZ BACKKKKKKK :) :) :) Clubbing king is back & more handsome than ever omg! He looks good all the time, I swear. Just that he is back, he is already planning to go clubbing, organising parties. Fast or what? Merl & I talked throughout the night. Dad got Godma Sue to drive us back home first as it was late & I still have school tomorrow.
Muttons to Midnight is on, and seriously killing me with the lame Christmas jokes. Did I mention that I am very happy to meet Shufen for lunch tomorrow? I will also drop by PageOne to get New Moon, and prolly Diva? Teeheehee I'm off to bed now, toodles :)
P/s: I have to admit it. I miss J. More than I ever thought I would. This is the first time we've not met in two weeks after knowing each other for almost two years. So there,
mizz u j :)
I love you more than everything else in the world combined.
Labels: anger, daily life, school, tuesday
trick or treat? @ 11:29 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
? Love is such a flexible term, you never really know what it means ¿
I am filled with you. Skin, blood, bone, brain, & soul.
Whoohoo there is no class tomorrow!! Yay I'm so happy 'cos we've decided to go Christmas shopping after school & class is cancelled yay yay yay! Something to add on to the happy list (:
Debate today was fabbbbbulous. Not that I am siding my own class but I think the guys did really well. Point proven! Gilbert & one of the speakers from dmcd2 almost fought. It was like a one-on-one, audience attacking the speakers. Gilbert shoot up for us & argued with her. The whole class was cheering & all that 'cos they look as though they were about to fight I swear!!!! It was damn exciting not because it's a fight but because................. :) But Naidu stopped them so bleahhhhh
The whole school is infested with bees. What the hell. Especially the trash bin areas! Marc kept disturbing us on the way to the canteen & the way back to the classroom. I swear it's all his fault we were so paranoid ok! We kept ducking when he did all that actions when actually, there is nothing flying around him at all. He just started laughing after seeing us being all retarded.
Dad came to pick me again today & it was just us both so we talked. I told him where we usually have lunch & all that. Even he agrees that this area don't have much places with good food we can choose from. I guess I got the whole appreciating good food genes from him. Then we talked about cars, houses (we always come to this topic whenever we're alone in the car) & money. Then, about life.
Dad: Eh.. be contented ah.
G: Ahhh yeh talk about being contented, I really should feel that way. I have a place to live in, new stuff to use, to wear. I don't have to worry if there's food tomorrow.
Dad: Tv programs showed you a lot. See how others have suffered, and some still suffering. That's why I always tell you girls to be contented. Have I not?
G: Mmhmmm I need to remind myself constantly about that, really.. And stop comparing others.
Dad: I am contented, yknow with all that I have right now. A car, a stable job, a flat I call my own, my family, you girls. I am very contented. Why compare? Compare only make you feel bad & terrible.
G: But daddy yknow sometimes it's so hard not to compare. C'mon look at my friends!! Condo, semi-d, bungalow, owns two cars, their own family business..
Dad: Girl, why compare? Her dad's rich, can afford but I'm sorry your dad is poor. What for compare? My customer is rich also, the one staying here (points to the semi-d). He is his own boss & he earns a lot. Why can't I be like him? (went out of the car to run some errands)
Dad: (came back and..) See, why others ride motorbike? Why don't buy car?
G: Cos cheap ma.
Dad: Because they cannot afford a car. Yeh some wanna save cost. Why others drive van, or trucks?
G: Cos of work lor.
Dad: I also can what. But I'm driving a car now. I have a flat. A happy family. A stable job. I am very contented, girl.
G: I should be, too..
Makes a lot of sense to me, all of a sudden.
I should be contented.
When I got home... MY $50 WORTH OF RINGS PACKAGE HAS FINALLY REACHED ME YAY!!!!!!!!!
So. Damn. Happy.
It was supposed to be here last week but it's okay. As long as it is here yay! I think I'm gonna wear them tomorrow. Not all but one probably :)
In the course of a month, not boasting but I've never experienced this or never expected this, I have about 7 people asking for my number. Is it luck or is it 'cos of the glow on me recently? But this definitely boost my confidence. Let's just take it that I've been glowing more than usual & that beauty products I used these few days is worth the money so I've grown prettier by this bit overnight. Whoa confidence level 89%!
At least a few things to feel happy about today :D
No, not the dream, it felt weird having the same storyline playing in a different setting though it felt right with you stranger. No not you being here, by my side now - in fact I think I don't need you anymore.
Kz I promise some pictures tomorrow, g'night everyone I'm gonna go call the sexy one now whoohoo!
Labels: blockquote, conversation, daily life, emotions, pictures, quotes, school, something meaningful, wednesday
trick or treat? @ 11:06 PM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
? I wish that you were near, it's better when you're here ¿
Hooray guess what mummy came home with!
Fedora, fringe bag & two name stamps :D
Dad: We'll go Beijing again next year
G: NO WAY please count me out ok no no no
(laughter)
Dad: Are you happy?
G: Yesssss *wide grins* of course
For one, they are back. Safely. Other than the fact that they are both scratching like hell due to the dry weather in Beijing that caused them to have rashes all over their bodies. For two, I got the two things I wanted!! And both in brown hehehe! Thanks mummy you're one in a million *hugs & kisses*
Mom: Oi got school tomorrow right? Aiyo you better go to bed! I almost forgot about it
(She came into the room again..)
Mom: Eh sleep hor, tomorrow got morning class right? Go to bed please, log off in awhile ah
G: Okay, goodnight mummy
(Closes the door behind her)
Zel: She like, miss us like that hor?
G: Duh, obvious right? I mean, who wouldn't?
You're so cute mom & I love you, I'm so glad you're home.
Dad went to shower, he came out & show us his purchase. All the watches & shoes, haha he's so funny. He displayed them on the coffee table & went like, "See see! My new watch!" Haha miss you la dad he sat on the sofa & hugged Zel, I thought it was so cute though I wished he'd hold me instead.... But honestly I know why he would do that to Zel but not me so it's fine. Luv him anywayz
I'm sad that Che is home now. No one to watch lame MVP until wee hours & that act cute Rainie Yang show with, no more trying to stay up 'til 7am for Mac's breakfast, no more late night Starbucks, no more butterfly prawns & corn soup & clam chowder. And also sad that Gran is going home soon :( :( I hope she stays I really hope she does. I want her to stay with us forever and ever & never return to that monster's house. Ahh am also sad that no more staying up 'til 5am in the morning just talking nonsense, no more blastin' r&b songs like we're clubbing at home with all light sticks on, no more showering at wee hours, no more showering 5x a day ('cos mom h8s it when I do that, gotta control myself), no more caramel frappe at least once a day, no more running around the house like idiotz at 3am, no more rolling on mama's bad without worrying that I will get scolded & the list could go on & on & on.....
BUT YES!!!!! Time for me to switch my body clock back to norm!!! I'm fucking happy about that ok I can't stand my limited edition only available in Singapore Gucci eye bags anymore. I don't care how much they cost but fuck it they make me ugly!!! :(
Two more days before J is home sweet home!
Time flies when you're having fun, no?
Ok goodnight my eyes are closing & class @ 9am tomorrow!
Constant reminder: Stranger stranger stranger x
There wasn't anything overly amazing about you, just something I couldn't resist.
Labels: daily life, photos, random, rant, tired, tuesday
trick or treat? @ 2:00 AM
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