Monday, December 29, 2008
? You're what keeps me believing this world's not gone dead ¿
Why can't stop thinking of you, get all breathless when you're near?
I am starting to dislike things that reminds me of you. It's almost everything. What have we not done when we're together. It's the things we do & enjoy together that reminds me of you. They never fail to. I wish they would stop. I wonder how you do it like you do. You go about everyday without a single thought of me, keep laughing & keep being happy with your friends but why can't I?
When we agreed it was lust, that your lips were on mine, I was happy. Now I want it back again. I want that very moment. Every single moment. With you. I'm at my best when I am with you. Why can't you see it?
It's not that I do not want to let go. I want to because I've been upset so long, long enough for a seed to blossom into a beautiful flower & I'm still here missing you, tearing away, watching the clip of happy memories. I don't want to because..because..I don't know. Something stops me, I don't know what is it. Seems like my heart knows you'd come home to me after all, that's why I am not willing to let it go.
You're the reason why I don't wanna leave 2008 for the happy memories we've made & go into 2009 without you at all.
♥
P/s: Happy 19th. Though it was a bad start cos we spoke of her just now. But I love you anywayz.
P/p/s: Tomorrow is going to be better because school + lots of love kissmas lunch with Jems & Shim + Twilight and cheap kopitiam dinner with J :)
P/p/p/s: I am already in the midst of saving up & planning for the surprise, yay or nay?
We had a love, but we still said goodbye.
I am starting to dislike things that reminds me of you. It's almost everything. What have we not done when we're together. It's the things we do & enjoy together that reminds me of you. They never fail to. I wish they would stop. I wonder how you do it like you do. You go about everyday without a single thought of me, keep laughing & keep being happy with your friends but why can't I?
When we agreed it was lust, that your lips were on mine, I was happy. Now I want it back again. I want that very moment. Every single moment. With you. I'm at my best when I am with you. Why can't you see it?
It's not that I do not want to let go. I want to because I've been upset so long, long enough for a seed to blossom into a beautiful flower & I'm still here missing you, tearing away, watching the clip of happy memories. I don't want to because..because..I don't know. Something stops me, I don't know what is it. Seems like my heart knows you'd come home to me after all, that's why I am not willing to let it go.
You're the reason why I don't wanna leave 2008 for the happy memories we've made & go into 2009 without you at all.
♥
P/s: Happy 19th. Though it was a bad start cos we spoke of her just now. But I love you anywayz.
P/p/s: Tomorrow is going to be better because school + lots of love kissmas lunch with Jems & Shim + Twilight and cheap kopitiam dinner with J :)
P/p/p/s: I am already in the midst of saving up & planning for the surprise, yay or nay?
We had a love, but we still said goodbye.
Labels: emotional ramblings, emotions, monday, random, rant, thoughts
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