Wednesday, December 17, 2008
? The way you make me feel will never leave my mind ¿
I know all the things that I've been putting up here are the things that you don't wanna hear, don't wish to know. I put it up here is not to gain sympathy from readers but to be reminded of my feelings, of why am I going through this. I'm telling you now that it was awkward for me. Ill at ease. Very difficult. Uncomfortable. I couldn't breathe right. I was fighting to breathe. I wished I could say something more than just chuckling & go 'Yeh, pathetic right?..' I don't know if I could look into the same pair of eyes ever again. I want to be able to. I want you to look at me in the eye.
I wish you knew I wish you knew I wish you knew I wish you knew I wish you knew
I WISH YOU KNEW
So I won't find it so hard to look into your eyes.
So I won't find it so hard to strike a conversation with you.
So I won't have to keep guessing what is on your mind.
So I won't have to avoid you, avoid crossing paths with you.
So I won't be reminded of you all the time, no matter where I am.
So I won't have to imagine your voice, trying to remember how your touch felt like.
So I won't have to go through the album of our photos everyday & think of you.
So I won't have to wonder so much, if you're doing good or are you not.
So I won't have to keep reminding myself that you've forgotten about me & I should do the same.
So I won't have to keep reminding myself I won't see me in your eyes anymore.
So I won't have to think of you whenever a song comes up.
So I won't speak of you so often to my friends.
So I won't miss you so much.
I am dying to know. Speak to me, please, I'm begging you..
One day when you come to me & play pretense, like you never went away & we keep on loving like before, I will gladly go with your plan. And when I say that I love you, I hope your reply to be, "Could you believe that, despite everything I've put you through, I love you, too?"
Yes, darling, yes.. I do. I always believe you.
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