Friday, December 26, 2008
? Spoken words like moonlight, you're the voice that I like ¿
"But for now let me say,"
"Without hope or agenda,"
"Just because it's Christmas-"
"(And at Christmas you tell the truth)"
"To me, you're perfect"
"And my wasted heart will love you"
I think I've held back for long enough, for this "stay happy" period just so I don't break down & cry, feel upset & sorry for myself, keep whispering apologies to you for crying so hard over missing you again.
But tonight, I let the tears ruin my make up, let them smudge, let the mascara run upon hearing what I didn't wanna hear..
Breaking down.
Finally.
I hope breaking down this time would be the last time in a long long while. This cry would be a huge ass reminder to how much more stronger I have to be from now on.
x
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell, unless you're in need but that shouldn't be the case on Christmas. I was surprised as I read 'Merry Christmas', yet a little happy at the same time. The same familiar ID photo I attached to your contact in my phone, the same familiar feeling I get whenever I see your name.
I hope tomorrow is going to be a much better day. With all the gifts to be given out & a few to receive, I am looking forward to it. I wanna be happy tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and every day that follows.
Not another crying night like this, I sure do not need it.
I think I haven't said this to you in a while but
I love you, darling.
Forty-nine days of waiting.
One hundred and thirteen days of love.
Five hundred and seventy-seven days of true love & lust.
Which would you pick?
♥
I have to say you're perfect in every way.
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