Sunday, December 7, 2008
? Lovely conjunctions & phrases, plays on a few words that you never meant ¿
Love is a dress that you made long to hide your knees.
I don't know what have I done or said to make you feel like I still have hope for us in me but no, I do not. I'm losing hope every single day. With or without you here. Nothing you've done that make me have a little hope or faith at all, and it's true.. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I do not believe you or have trust in what you said but I really have zero hope in us & in you right now. It is something good, isn't it? I'm sure.. At least you don't feel so bad for all that has happened. Your bluntness & coldness towards me is just telling me how you've moved on so fine without me & I should be doing the same. Since you've already let it go, I should too.
I will treat you like a friend, close to a familiar stranger that I've met in my fairytale dream.
Don't forget, I am doing all of these not for myself but for you. Because that's what you want me to do, no? Whether we stay as friends or enemies does not lie in my hands but yours, my dear. Whether we be more than friends or less than that, the decision still lies in you. I am disposable & at your disposal. I'm sorry if I'm reminded of you much too often at one time. As much as I do not want it to, I just..can't help it. I'm sorry I made you my everything & my what's happening. I'm sorry, I love you so much.
And it is always much easier said than done.
Today marks one month since I stepped out of all of these. I must seek closure today, over this issue of ours. It's been bugging me for long enough..
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Clubbing or not clubbing or not clubbing or not clubbing or not?
Be back to update more l8r <3
Labels: emotional ramblings, emotions, home, rant, sunday
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