Thursday, December 18, 2008
? It's more than a scar, it's a lifetime you left ¿
I had a extremely tiring day, yet again. I am on my 14th slide of my presentation. My neck is aching, my back bone is breaking, my eyes are tired & painful but before I go to sleep tonight, I wanna pen down these thoughts of mine that ran through my head today.
You, being in one of my favourite top, made me half-smiled to myself while reading New Moon.
I don't understand why I have to do that. It was pointless. And in addition, it was a chance given away. I really don't know why I did that. I ran so fast that I couldn't breathe but I didn't stop. I didn't halt to catch my breathe or even look back. I really wanted to talk to you, this I have to admit. Being with you, in a crowd or somewhere near would be good enough.. So exactly, why did I do what I did?.. I have no idea. I actually blew the chance away, thanks to me. At that moment, I thought I did the right thing. I was happy, thinking that..y'know I'd never get upset over this because this is what friends do, you left me alone all the time, this being not the first time so this was it. But come to think about it, I should've just not do what I did. But what's done is done, no?
So many questions I still have for you. I could talk to you forever, never sleeping, never leaving your side. I could see your face so clearly now… almost hear your voice. And, despite all the heartbreaks & hopelessness, I was hopelessly happy, smiling away. So involved was I in my daydreams, I lost all track of the seconds racing by.
I remember once you said, "What's the point of saying sorry when you've already done it?"
I am sorry, & I love you.
(Well, if the trick still works..)
P/s: pleaseplease get more sleep, you sure need it more than I do.
P/p/s: pleaseplease start being yourself, you're missed.
P/p/p/s: i have this gut feeling i won't see you tomorrow.
You, being in one of my favourite top, made me half-smiled to myself while reading New Moon.
I don't understand why I have to do that. It was pointless. And in addition, it was a chance given away. I really don't know why I did that. I ran so fast that I couldn't breathe but I didn't stop. I didn't halt to catch my breathe or even look back. I really wanted to talk to you, this I have to admit. Being with you, in a crowd or somewhere near would be good enough.. So exactly, why did I do what I did?.. I have no idea. I actually blew the chance away, thanks to me. At that moment, I thought I did the right thing. I was happy, thinking that..y'know I'd never get upset over this because this is what friends do, you left me alone all the time, this being not the first time so this was it. But come to think about it, I should've just not do what I did. But what's done is done, no?
So many questions I still have for you. I could talk to you forever, never sleeping, never leaving your side. I could see your face so clearly now… almost hear your voice. And, despite all the heartbreaks & hopelessness, I was hopelessly happy, smiling away. So involved was I in my daydreams, I lost all track of the seconds racing by.
I remember once you said, "What's the point of saying sorry when you've already done it?"
I am sorry, & I love you.
(Well, if the trick still works..)
P/s: pleaseplease get more sleep, you sure need it more than I do.
P/p/s: pleaseplease start being yourself, you're missed.
P/p/p/s: i have this gut feeling i won't see you tomorrow.
Labels: emotions, random, rant, school, thoughts, thursday
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