Wednesday, December 24, 2008
? Don't stop calling, you're the reason I love losing sleep ¿
Whatever I've said to you has fallen on deaf ears.
I'm exasperated. Disappointed. So very tired.
Why do you not understand :(
I wanna know why you asked, I wanna ask but I'm afraid of your answer.
x
Last night, I went through my inbox filled of your texts. The one you sent just a month or two back on that very day, the first sentence had tears welled up in both my eyes & when I read them out loud, I was tearing like mad. My voice was trembling with fear, guilt & sadness.
No doubt, every sweet text from you I read did made me smile but the bitterness stayed where my heart is. How can I ever make it go away.. I guess the only time when it will really go away is when you're out of my heart & my mind. I don't know when will be the time but I hope it is real soon. As much as I want to remember this feeling I have for you that I would never feel the same for someone else, I have to because I'm dying to see the real me, the happier me again.
That look into your eyes, I saw sparks that flew. Was it supposed to be this way because you said _ the other time? I was afraid, that was why I looked away. So so afraid, I dare not look at you.
I wish I could still say I'm strong like before but I don't think I am anymore.
"Love you!" rings in my head quite often in your velvety voice of recent..
And that's the only thing you said that I can remember in your voice. I wish I'd record our conversation in the past, so I wouldn't have to miss you so much. I wish every sweet nothing you whispered into my ears would ring in my head forever like you've just said them to me. Something quite very impossible.
I'm sorry darling, but I miss you so.
♥
I'm exasperated. Disappointed. So very tired.
Why do you not understand :(
I wanna know why you asked, I wanna ask but I'm afraid of your answer.
x
Last night, I went through my inbox filled of your texts. The one you sent just a month or two back on that very day, the first sentence had tears welled up in both my eyes & when I read them out loud, I was tearing like mad. My voice was trembling with fear, guilt & sadness.
No doubt, every sweet text from you I read did made me smile but the bitterness stayed where my heart is. How can I ever make it go away.. I guess the only time when it will really go away is when you're out of my heart & my mind. I don't know when will be the time but I hope it is real soon. As much as I want to remember this feeling I have for you that I would never feel the same for someone else, I have to because I'm dying to see the real me, the happier me again.
That look into your eyes, I saw sparks that flew. Was it supposed to be this way because you said _ the other time? I was afraid, that was why I looked away. So so afraid, I dare not look at you.
I wish I could still say I'm strong like before but I don't think I am anymore.
"Love you!" rings in my head quite often in your velvety voice of recent..
And that's the only thing you said that I can remember in your voice. I wish I'd record our conversation in the past, so I wouldn't have to miss you so much. I wish every sweet nothing you whispered into my ears would ring in my head forever like you've just said them to me. Something quite very impossible.
I'm sorry darling, but I miss you so.
♥
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