Sunday, December 28, 2008
? But I've been thinking of you, got these far away blues ¿
Tonight was great.
The opera was fabulous, distracted by every thought of you that comes into my head once in awhile. Supper was even better, the happy couple behind reminded me so much of how things used to be.
I find myself thinking of you more when I try not to. The more I tell myself I should have fun tonight because I deserve to, the lesser fun I have. But tonight, I did have fun, going around in the day with thoughts of you running in my head.
To be honest I didn't expected anything 'cept thank yous and more thank yous from you. Well, if that's what you were thinking yknow, I wanted something more more more from you. But no, I don't. I do not. Absolutely. I explain because I want you to know, I want you to understand. I believe somehow you'll get to know it..I don't know how but I'm just hoping someone would tell you about or something. Or, you already know it. I prefer the latter though.
I still miss you..I guess. I don't know but I shouldn't be at all or anymore. Because remember I told _ that I'd get you out of my system after this because I've prayed so much for you & for me, told God what I always wanted, did what I have to and it's been omg-long-enough-fifty-one days, so how long am I expected to stay here for? I know you're worth it, you're worth everything I am doing right now but do you think so?
M & her boyfriend of three years broke up because her boyfriend fell for someone else. So he went with this girl but they didn't work out. So after eight good months, he went back for M. Guess what, M took him in. Still. Yes. She did. A said she was naive to do so, dumb decision. But I said nothing. I've never heard of stories like these. That's why I didn't actually believe that this might happen to me/us after all, or there might be a possibility. So then I wondered if that was gonna happen to me. Or even us. I didn't think M was naive, or was it a dumb decision. Because if G were M, she would have done the same, I thought.
Are we gonna get closure on this, ever? Are we coming out of history already?
Are we?
Just three words, my love: you meant everything.
♥
Thinking of a way to get you to stay, & I'll promise to fight the wind & wait for you.
The opera was fabulous, distracted by every thought of you that comes into my head once in awhile. Supper was even better, the happy couple behind reminded me so much of how things used to be.
I find myself thinking of you more when I try not to. The more I tell myself I should have fun tonight because I deserve to, the lesser fun I have. But tonight, I did have fun, going around in the day with thoughts of you running in my head.
To be honest I didn't expected anything 'cept thank yous and more thank yous from you. Well, if that's what you were thinking yknow, I wanted something more more more from you. But no, I don't. I do not. Absolutely. I explain because I want you to know, I want you to understand. I believe somehow you'll get to know it..I don't know how but I'm just hoping someone would tell you about or something. Or, you already know it. I prefer the latter though.
I still miss you..I guess. I don't know but I shouldn't be at all or anymore. Because remember I told _ that I'd get you out of my system after this because I've prayed so much for you & for me, told God what I always wanted, did what I have to and it's been omg-long-enough-fifty-one days, so how long am I expected to stay here for? I know you're worth it, you're worth everything I am doing right now but do you think so?
M & her boyfriend of three years broke up because her boyfriend fell for someone else. So he went with this girl but they didn't work out. So after eight good months, he went back for M. Guess what, M took him in. Still. Yes. She did. A said she was naive to do so, dumb decision. But I said nothing. I've never heard of stories like these. That's why I didn't actually believe that this might happen to me/us after all, or there might be a possibility. So then I wondered if that was gonna happen to me. Or even us. I didn't think M was naive, or was it a dumb decision. Because if G were M, she would have done the same, I thought.
Are we gonna get closure on this, ever? Are we coming out of history already?
Are we?
Just three words, my love: you meant everything.
♥
Thinking of a way to get you to stay, & I'll promise to fight the wind & wait for you.
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