Wednesday, December 3, 2008
? But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed with a breath taker, a smile faker ¿
I used to know you like the back of my hand until today you held your place. Now you're shifting like the sand. Your chest would heave with pride if I were spoken of. Til tonight, I never knew the difference between comfort & love. Although you're sleeping right next to me, well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream leading a life that is finally free of these endless nights & countless fights that turn us into who we hate to be. This is so difficult for the both of us. I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us. Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game. All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing - nothing will ever be the same. I used to hold you like it's all that I had. Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad. Your mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of, til tonight you never thought you'd lose this epic battle with love. For what it's worth, I've always admired you, I always thought that we could make it through. Now look what time can do, it took our masterpiece we built & broke it in two.
I always believed in you.
I always loved you.
I always believed in you.
I always loved you.
Now mom & dad are away, so is J. Che, Zel, Gran, my maid & myself is home. Doesn't feel like home yet all. I miss the naggings, suddenly. Like no one would ask me to go have dinner, no one would nag at me to go bathe & wash off my make up, no one would ask how was my day in school, no one would tell me how enocomy is facing a downfall & we shouldn't spend too much.
Oh well, I should treasure the peace I'm having now, no?
School was fun with Kevin around :) I swear he's fucking funny & I'm starting to like him bit by bit. He makes me laugh & forget all the reasons why I'm sighing so much today. Thanks Kevin! And you better learn to keep your mouth shut, I am so serious about this. I will start blackmailing you if you do what you're not supposed to be doing!! Trust is a major issue & I believe staying in this cruel world for more than twenty-two years sure have taught you that, no? ;) Love la love la k stop being =( over WeAllKnowWho!
I'm waiting for the clock to strike twelve & hear my heart break all over again. Why do I love you so much, why do I love you to the extend that I can give up the most precious thing in my life? Why do I think of you ever so often that you're imprinted in my mind & it seems like you're never gonna go away at all? Why do I love you more than you love me? Why when someone is in love, they don't care what they do as long as the one they love stays by their side & that is all that ever matters to them? Why can't you make someone love you as hard as the way you love them? Why can't you just take this chance to love me now when you still have the chance to?
Constant reminder: 15 more minutes & I am not going to cry.
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