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So Yan finally appeared online after being away from me for one week odd.
I told her about what has been happening, & we spoke of you. You acting weird lately, you not being yourself, you & what you said, you & your thoughts & emotions. Especially the I miss yous said - it brought me nothing but skipped a heart beat. She was happy to hear all of that, not forgetting the fact that she loved us being together, she always thought we were cute. She pasted what you wrote to me & I was shocked, honestly. I don't know what's the conclusion but what I said & what she showed me kinda link to each other? I don't know, & I don't wanna think so much. I've already walked out of this, I don't wanna go back to how I was like few months back. Not forgetting the fear I feel, especially with her around.

We then spoke of you.
The text messages sent, what I've been told, what I saw for myself. It is upsetting..it still is, for me. As much as I appear to look less affected than I really am deep down in front of everyone, it upsets me to know you are not a wee bit happy at all. I wish I could hug you tight, tell you I'm sorry for all of these though I am not to be blamed but still sorry that I left you alone, I wasn't there for you, I said hurtful things to you, I did mean things to tell you that I no longer care the same for you. In actual fact, I still do, & I will never stop caring for you. I will risk it all for you to prove it is true, if only you would let me.

All the I love yous & I miss yous are said but not enough.

So much happened in a week. I feel like a changed person.
I've learned to enjoy being in my own company.
I've been a much stronger girl than before.

So Yan finally appeared online after being away from me for one week odd.
I told her about what has been happening, & we spoke of you. You acting weird lately, you not being yourself, you & what you said, you & your thoughts & emotions. Especially the I miss yous said - it brought me nothing but skipped a heart beat. She was happy to hear all of that, not forgetting the fact that she loved us being together, she always thought we were cute. She pasted what you wrote to me & I was shocked, honestly. I don't know what's the conclusion but what I said & what she showed me kinda link to each other? I don't know, & I don't wanna think so much. I've already walked out of this, I don't wanna go back to how I was like few months back. Not forgetting the fear I feel, especially with her around.

We then spoke of you.
The text messages sent, what I've been told, what I saw for myself. It is upsetting..it still is, for me. As much as I appear to look less affected than I really am deep down in front of everyone, it upsets me to know you are not a wee bit happy at all. I wish I could hug you tight, tell you I'm sorry for all of these though I am not to be blamed but still sorry that I left you alone, I wasn't there for you, I said hurtful things to you, I did mean things to tell you that I no longer care the same for you. In actual fact, I still do, & I will never stop caring for you. I will risk it all for you to prove it is true, if only you would let me.

All the I love yous & I miss yous are said but not enough.

So much happened in a week. I feel like a changed person.
I've learned to enjoy being in my own company.
I've been a much stronger girl than before.