Thursday, November 20, 2008
? What might you say if you could tell me anything? ¿
So when you ask me why I cannot love you more calmly, I answer that to love you calmly is not to love you at all.
The silence still kills me but it isn't as bad as before.
Behind the tough guy mask you put up is still the same sweetheart that gave me butterflies.
Behind the happy girl mask I put up is still the same girl you fell in love with.
I'm sorry, nothing's ever gonna change that xx
School was definitely boring, I swear. But Miss Zoe Ong Ban Teng has decided that today shall be her first day of school. She finally turned up, yes. TDMC is a killer. Fucking boring. I love TPSW, no matter how 'wolverine' the lecturer looks & how he has got stupid rules. It's English & I really love English. Plus, it's interesting! Not boring like TDMC & HMC.
We had lunch at Tiong, Long John Silver :) Lovelove. We had a nice long (not really) talk that caused our past memory to flash back in our minds which made Shim tear. I felt stupid but at that point of time, it felt right so no regrets? I kept telling myself that, I kept telling Shim that. Don't look back & feel like it's so dumb, why am I so stupid & all that. It just goes to show how we can do so much for love while they can't. Guys, they fail at this. Terribly.
And Shim said something that can't stop ringing in my head right up 'til now: If it's so hard for you, why not just text *? Just go ahead. I'm sure * will reply you.
We went back home at around 2pm. Went out with mom & dad after that to Toa Payoh. I was effin' sleepy but I just wanted to sit in the car & talk to them both. Spend some quality time together. When we came back, Aunt Shirley, Jermaine, Jenae & Gran came over at our place for dinner. (:
I was texting April & she said something that made me smile: ..I believe * know that you care after all.
It's more than just this but I cannot remember the exact sentence.
I'm meeting April tomorrow for lunch, before I go off to school. After class, J's coming over to pick me up at school then we'll meet Yan & M for dindin (: I want Starbucks. Til midnight? :D
Sounds like an amazing Friday ahead, I can feel it.
Labels: emotions, school, thoughts, thursday