Monday, November 17, 2008
? Now I don't know if I'm ever really gonna let you go ¿
I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this like every inch of me is bruised.
Horoscopes can be so scary. Mine for today.
Your Horoscope Today : 17 Nov 2008
Your relationship with a loved one may not be very warm at this time. As much as you would like to sort matters out immediately, this may not be happening to your satisfaction. Maybe this loved one needs time and understanding. Give them enough time, but try to keep the dialogue going on some small level. Tackle the issue with a lot of tact and diplomacy.
I read it to Yan over the phone & her immediate response was 'What the fuck, damn accurate la yours!'.
Jemi: Us! We're gonna get you out. GET YOU OUTTTT of it.
The journey to school was really hard but I survived it. The journey from school back home was even harder. I was sobbing throughout the whole ride home. J was on the phone with me, trying to keep me positive & tell me how things are like from her view outside of the circle I'm in.
She kept telling me that people come & go, & I should be able to accept this by now after having to face so much of these in my entire eighteen years of life. But I guess I'm not strong enough. I always thought that I was. Looking at the state I am in right now really disappoints me a lot. I've never seen this side of Glynis. J told me to stay positive. But the more I try to, something else will come along the way to bring me down. I told her I dread every morning that I wake up to, I'm afraid of falling asleep every night. 'Cos I don't know what I am about to face, what I have to put up with, who am I gonna meet again tonight in my dreams, how much fake smiles I have to put up before the day is over. And she said something that kept ringing in my head, 'Do you know that every single day that you wake up to, the misery gets a little bit lesser but you just don't feel it? 'Cos you keep saying it's hard but you don't know that it is getting better everyday. Look at it at a different light. Don't be so negative.'
Make sense, really it does.
To the boy sitting in front of me:
You are so hot, call me 9xx9xxx8
Love, Glyn :)
He asked us to do this assignment today.
Qns: What is happiness?
My answer: Happiness is when I have you. Happiness is when I know you're always there. Happiness is when you'll catch me when I fall. Happiness is when you never fail to put up a smile on my face. Happiness is when I know that you love me. Happiness is when I have tangles in my hair & you still look me in the eye & tell me I'm beautiful.
Shimin read it & she was like, 'Eh, stand up & read la. Daring a bit. Stand up & read!'
I shall post this question on ljcommunities or forums to see other people's answer! :D
I am trying to grap the notion that you no longer care. It is kinda like I am numb to the factor that you no longer love me the same like before. As much as it hurts, I keep thinking maybe you'll come back.
Oh, if you're wondering, first day of school sucked. So badly. The lecturer is by far the worst lecturer I've seen. Ugh.. So not looking forward to tomorrow :( I'm going to sleep now, g'night!
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