Tuesday, November 18, 2008
? I think it’s time I let my love for him die ¿
But looking back I guess I didn't know that I was in love & you were letting go.
Feeling: Very light :)
Listening: The tv
Yes indeed very light. I feel happy typing this, haha. I woke up to an empty house, with the dream I dreamt of last night playing in my head. Oh, did I mention that I dreamt of you again? I played some music on the stereo just so I wouldn't feel so quiet. When I was in the kitchen, I feel you. All of a sudden. The smell of nicotine rise up like the hot air balloon, then came this familiar smell that I used to smell like whenever I get home after spending a day with you. No no no, I musn't think so much..
Fifteen minutes to 12pm, I took out the diary & wrote a letter to you, telling you how I really feel. As much as I wish you'd read it, you will never get the chance to. Just when I was about to leave the house, I cut on something & I was bleeding profusely. It was extremely painful :( I couldn't stop the blood at all! I hope there won't be a scar.. :/ I was so fed up with myself in the train when I realised that I forgot to take my medication in the morning. I hate it, I want to get well soon & I should take my medicine regularly!!
School was amazing today. I was telling they two I'm feeling very happy today & I asked if they can feel it. My mood affects my out & about in the day, as you can see. What I learned today really amazed me. TPSW is quite fun after all, despite the Wolverine lookalike lecturer. I cannot stop saying, 'Omg he looks a lot like Wolverine with that hair! And with the *makes a face* grrr look!'
Shimin came to school late but she bought something for us! J.co donuts <3<3 :D
Hazelnut, double chcocolate, oreo!
I had the double chocolate one :) Yumyum!
After class, Shimin & I sat at Outram station to waste a little time before she head for work as it was still early. We left at around 5.30pm & I got home at 6pm. The train was fast today!
I watched this video twice & still lol-ed. I love Ellen Denegeres :)
It won't be long now, until you come crawling back for more. I've got to admit I'm hoping that I'm what you're looking for. You are the greatest thing that's happened to me. If you stay with me, I can prove we will make it together. I wish I could still say this but decisions have been made & I'm not gonna change my mind. I'm proud of myself for what I've decided to do. I really hope I will start seeing myself soon :)
Oh am gee you guys (Ellen Denegeres said that in the video!), check out my horoscope for today. I'm so..shocked.
Your Horoscope Today : 18 Nov 2008
You will be on a mental and physical high today. Your high spirits will charm everyone around you, be it at home or at work. Even your output at work increases in quality and quantity because of this! Use today to push forward on any pending tasks and your productivity will be exceptionally high today.
I'm feeling happier than before after I've read this.
Oh I did not mention in yesterday's post that this sem we are having class with another class, DMCD2 0846A. There's this shy Thai boy..& if you don't know, I always have fetish for Thai boys. And shy boys really interest me hahaha I think they are cute! And there's this hottie who sat in front me yesterday..he totally 'whaaaa' the girls when he turned around! I wonder if he's mixed, he sure look mixed to me.. I really wanna know, damn curious!
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But you never forget them, & sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.
There's morning class tomorrow, 9-12pm!! :( :( After that I'll have lunch with the girls (yay finally) before meeting J for movie. I've been on the phone with Yan for the past few days & she never fails to make me smile or laugh at least once before we hang up. And we agreed that she'll come over when the folks are away yay!! :D Someone promised to accompany me, but I don't know if they remember.. Anyway I'm really tired, I've been sleeping at 4am almost every night! I shall have an early night :)
P/s: Yan ahhhh where are you!! We need to discuss about x & I need to tell you about x!
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