Sunday, November 9, 2008
? You’re my weakness, still my lover in my mind ¿
It's not up to me anymore, whether you want me in your life.
Please find a way to put me there.
Darling, what happened? Please tell me, 'cos for one second, it was perfect, now you're half-way out the door. I stay up, at the phone, you still did not call. I feel so low, can't feel nothing at all & my memory flashes back to when you said, "Forever & always". And it rains in my bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here & it rains when you're gone. 'Cos I was there when you said, "Forever & always".
Sometimes I feel like I'm falling to pieces & the only thing that is going to make me smile is being in your arms again. I thought of you so much today. I know I shouldn've, & I shouldn't be either. But everything I did today has got something to do with you, or it will just reminds me of you. I can't believe this but it happened again. I was in a crowd today & I felt as lonely as ever. It's horrible. Do you know how it feels like? I hope you do 'cos I want you to know how terrible I am right now but at the same time, I do not want you to go through what I did.. I remember the first few weeks that we knew each other, we were always paired together with our lips pressed tightly amongst each other's. I also remember how each time we kiss, none of us have intentions of stopping. I hope you remember it too.
Sometimes the one who broke your heart is the only one who knows just where all the pieces fit, & sometimes the one who crushed your dreams is the only one you can rely on to make them come true.
Well, yknow what? This is one of the times.
I am so tired of guessing how you're feeling on the inside right now. Tear down that strong front of yours, my dear. Stop playing this pretence game with me. As much as I can keep pretending, my heart can't deny that it still beats for you.
And tonight, you really let me down.
Do you even remember the promises you made to me?
Two of it is, never leave me alone & always be here for me anytime.
All I need to know is that I'm something you'll be missing.
Ps: I'll blog again tmr with some visuals ^^ & try t be less emo. Gonna go try and get some sleep!
Labels: emotional ramblings, emotions, saturday
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