Thursday, November 6, 2008
? We were strangers when we met, & we were strangers when you left ¿
:(
And tonight, I lost faith.
In me, in you, in us.
That sixth sense scene I told you about? It's gone. I hope it comes back but at the same time, I'm doubting it will. I will be convinced, someday, that it will never happen. It is hurting so bad when it shouldn't be. I must not allow it to. I must not let this put me down..
I'd wish on every shooting star, hang onto every 11:11, save every four leaf clover, do whatever it would take. But I won't do this. I can't. As much as this is going to be the death of me, I cannot do this, I can't let myself get hurt again. So what now? Because I have finally figured out what I should do, what I need to do, and yet the instant I hear your voice I remember what I want to do. And neither answer is the same, or even remotely related. And I always find myself right back here, confused, used, and eagerly anticipating something that will never, ever happen...
It's when your insensitivity strikes.
I see how we both are so fucking insecure.
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