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Just reached home.

Physically drained.

Concert was good, only the part when Hossan Leong, Dim Sum Dollies & Stefanie Sun was on stage.

Supper was better food with better company.

Cabbed back from Centrepoint, J took the same cab back to her place.

Cab fare sums up to $40, cheap much?

I was expecting more.
Cousins are dropping by tomorrow, hooray I can finally sleep in.
I've got MC for Monday.

Sometimes I wonder to myself why, why am I doing all these for? I don't deny I have the urge to hold you close when we're THIS close but I know if I did, you'd push me as far as you can. And I don't want you to do that. Being THIS close but not able to hold you was tough enough. I can tell you, with assurance, if I were to tell this to anyone at all, they'd say I deserve it. Whether they know the story behind it or not, I still deserve this cold as winter treatment I'm getting from you. Well, despite the things I've been doing.. It's as though like when I fall on my knees in front of me, you're just gonna stop & stare, not bothering to stretch out your arms even to help me up, or to ask if I'm okay.

But then again, I guess I really deserve all of these.
For not being good enough, for not being the kind of person you want me to be.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.

Remember they say when this relationship is bad, the next one will be better? I'm looking forward to see how much better can the next relationship be since this one is bad enough.

The medication is sinking in, I'm feeling drowsy..
Goodnight <3

Just reached home.

Physically drained.

Concert was good, only the part when Hossan Leong, Dim Sum Dollies & Stefanie Sun was on stage.

Supper was better food with better company.

Cabbed back from Centrepoint, J took the same cab back to her place.

Cab fare sums up to $40, cheap much?

I was expecting more.
Cousins are dropping by tomorrow, hooray I can finally sleep in.
I've got MC for Monday.

Sometimes I wonder to myself why, why am I doing all these for? I don't deny I have the urge to hold you close when we're THIS close but I know if I did, you'd push me as far as you can. And I don't want you to do that. Being THIS close but not able to hold you was tough enough. I can tell you, with assurance, if I were to tell this to anyone at all, they'd say I deserve it. Whether they know the story behind it or not, I still deserve this cold as winter treatment I'm getting from you. Well, despite the things I've been doing.. It's as though like when I fall on my knees in front of me, you're just gonna stop & stare, not bothering to stretch out your arms even to help me up, or to ask if I'm okay.

But then again, I guess I really deserve all of these.
For not being good enough, for not being the kind of person you want me to be.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.

Remember they say when this relationship is bad, the next one will be better? I'm looking forward to see how much better can the next relationship be since this one is bad enough.

The medication is sinking in, I'm feeling drowsy..
Goodnight <3

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