Tuesday, November 25, 2008
? It hasn't been my day for a couple years, what's a couple more? ¿
Call it predictable, yesterday my dream was of you.
School was really fucked up today. For one, presentation undone. For two, when we got to class, Jemi & I were like, "Oh so this was it?" We didn't know anything. We got the dates/assignments mixed up. :(
Not forgetting that the argument/small unhappiness we had was fucking unnecessary. Don't you think? I guess either one of us got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. And I'm quite sure it was me.
The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be ours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fall not because the absence of love - love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here's a piece of advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough, & move on when things are not like before. For sure, there is someone out there who will love you even more.
When I got home, I went online & you just have to make me feel worse than ever. Thank you. I've never felt better. Thank you so much. Can never thank you enough. I suppose the amount of misery I am in now isn't sufficient enough for you. You just have to prolong it. First, my wonderwall with that badly cropped photo. Second? The guardian angel with that ever so sweet photo.
Thank you so fucking much.
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After dinner, we went to Aunt's place by train & dad drove Allan's car out to the airport with all of us, Sally & Rhys. We went to T1 (ohamgee I hate it) & we had Popeye's for supper. Stayed until about 11pm & we cabbed back. I was dozing off. Damn fucking sleepy & tired luh.
Ok fine, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry about today. I have to say it else I'd feel bad forever, I won't be able to sleep tonight.
I'm going t get up at 6am tomorrow t get ready for school. I've t go sleep now, buay tahan. G'nights!
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