Friday, November 7, 2008
? I don't know how hard this wind will blow or where we'll go ¿
Sassy babygirl who's turning legal tomorrow came over & brighten up my entire day. We had a lot of catching up to do so it was good. She had dinner over at my place. It feels like the good'ol times again.
Thank you Sass, for allowing me to just keep ranting about the past. I hope you're feeling a lot better after tonight. Absence makes the heart fonder, my dear. I believe things are gonna be fine, don't worry too much. And please remember this - do what your heart tells you to, do what you think is right, do what that makes you happy & most importantly, do everything & anything but remember never to regret. Don't lose faith yet, you have me here for all times. I'm just a ring away.
Have fun tomorrow, dance the sorrows away & don't forget to lend me your lucky stars!
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What I've heard today that I cannot stop thinking about..
"If - is willing, - should help you get through this & be with you."
"- are just idiots"
"C'mon, they are just creatures with penis that's all."
"If - really loves you, - will come back for you la, really."
"Don't be sad, you are a damn good catch. A lot of people will go after you."
I am trying so fucking hard right now. UGH
Javier bff, thanks a million for being there, hearing me rant & all. I'm sorry for having t call your phone la. I didn't know it's prepaid! :/ Thanks a lot! I'm so glad you're over her!! And stop smoking so much la you kuku head you promised me you'll cut down cut down cut down!!
Shimmy dear, thank you for accompanying me the entire afternoon over the phone (: and also, I wanna apologise for not being there as I promised to. Please call me (bomb my phone if you have to, I allow you to ok) when you need to rant like what I did today okayyyy! The right one will come along at the right time. You just have to wait. I'm glad you're over him & that you're stronger now ^^ Meet up next week hor!
Corinne, thank youuuuuu for your advises & for sharing your horoscope sites :D You're so sweet la, really. I never thought I'd pour out to you la hahah! I'm happy for you that you're happier now & that you're going bkk for shopping trip (yay yay yay)! Remember to buy something for your partner-in-crime here ;) Shop + dinner + drinks after you're back from bkk!
YAN YOU ARE THE BLOODY (L) BOMB LA YOU ARE THE BEZZZZ YOU ACCOMPANIED ME THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE NIGHT! Thanks for sacrificing your precious sleep for me hehehe! Talking to you is damn fun la I'm serious. I talked more than I cried la I think! Hahaha * lots of hugs & kisses * dinner when dinner when!?
I very love you all la hor.
xx
I will blog about yesterday when I've uploaded the photos. Damn lazy now.
Tomorrow please be a better day. I'm buying my DSLR (omg, like finally) tomorrow but the excitement is gone. Remember we agreed we'd go take nice nice photos together? Meeting Laojie after that with Daniel to Haji Lane (!!) Dinner at Dempsey with the whole family. I'm looking forward to see Zetaime ;) I will try to get some sleep tonight. I is damn powderfool lor I went sleepless for more than 24 hours cansxzxz. Why am I so powderfool!
Do you know what the worst feeling in the world is? I think it has to be missing someone. It doesn't matter who they were to you or are to you, or where they are now, or even if they are dead and gone... Missing someone, anyone, is the worst feeling in the world. It's a feeling that never really goes away because you can't just stop missing someone. You just eventually kinda get used to it, until one day you hear a song that reminds you of them, or you see a picture or hear their name, or maybe it's something stupid like you drive by a place you went with them and boom! There, it is that feeling of missing someone so much it hurts, it comes back again, maybe even worse then when they first left, and it takes time again. Time for you to get used to the idea that they aren't always there and you cant just call them up to say hi. It takes times for you to forget them a little bit. The way they talk, the way they look, the way they laugh, the way they affected your life.. And it will always hurt a little. But some days will get better then others & some days will be worse than others. And for the most part, I don't think you ever really move on. Not really, not entirely.. It's like you just close of the section of your heart you gave to that person & day by day, you just get used to missing them so much that it's hard to breathe, and you live with the feeling of always gasping for air. I don't think you ever really stop missing that someone.
One day when I stop missing you & when I think of you, my heart remains calm & it is not in any sort of pain, neither is it breaking - that is when I can say I am officially over you.
What do you do when the one thing that keeps you alive is the one thing that is killing you slowly?
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