Monday, October 27, 2008
? Please, someone convince us to stick around ¿
There's just so much to work through. Trust has to be built again, on both sides... You have to learn if, if we're even the same people we were, if you can fit in each other's life. It's a long, important process, and can we just skip it?
Can, can you just be kissing me now?
No doubt skype with you was fun but seeing you was tough. Especially the way you can laughed like we never happened, like you never felt sad or broken about us. I hate how you never open up to me about your emotions at all. I have to keep guessing how you're feeling inside & what you're thinking & all. Stop doing this to me, it's too painful for me to bear..
And I don't deny I feel the pinch whenever her name is mentioned. I feel the pinch whenever you tell me about her. Do you feel the same, too?
Like every other day whenever I think of you, I'd browse through the photo album filled with our photos. But today, it was different. I couldn't stop tearing, no matter how hard I tried to stop myself.
I love you J, even though you no longer feel the same.
Oh God, please, when can I ever get over this? I'm so sick of being in pain & having to pretend like I've always been this happy.
Labels: emotional ramblings, monday
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