Sunday, September 14, 2008
? But I'm backwards enough, not to take any steps to get there ¿
Such simple miracles have happened since your steady hands have come & stopped my unraveling.
I've been staring at this blank space since 11.00pm & I'm not done staring at it. I have so much to pour out but I don't know how to put them into words.
Hey, how have you been? I know it hasn't been too long since I last saw you but things are different now. I just want to know that you're feeling a lot better from yesterday. I can't tell you that I am but I'm trying. For the past 21 hours and counting, I cannot stop thinking about how things are right now between us and how things were way back fifteen good months ago. Our sixteenth is coming, is it not? Do you still remember? I do, because my organiser is reminding me about it all the time. I was wondering how we're gonna make this sixteenth perfect like how we always try to on every other anniversary. But now? These bubble thoughts of mine burst. The thought of it bursting is enough to make me cry all over again.
I questioned myself a lot lately. What is it that I've done to deserve you? What is it that I've done to deserve this? What is it that we both have done to deserve this? And the answers to them all? Blank. I could not answer them at all. Is it because I haven't been good enough? Is it because I've been the worst to you? Is it because we're not in love anymore? Is it because it's time for us both to take a step back & move away? Is it because our dreams were crashed? What is it, I really want to know. What caused us to be how we are like right now?
You don't deserve to be treated this way, I'm sure. And you deserve better. Perhaps letting me go would be the best solution..
With your favourite song playing with tears streaming down my cheeks,
Glynis.
You know what is going to get my mind off things? I'll go play Guess A Sketch in facebook, do the Likeness quiz & what so ever.
Goodnight xx
Labels: emotional ramblings, sunday
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