Tuesday, June 24, 2008
? I didn't feel right anymore ¿
You always say that I don't understand but do you?
我是人， 跟你没有什么两样； 我也是有感觉， 我也跟你一样， 会累，会笑， 会哭， 会痛。 你也跟我一样需要一点点地关心， 一点点的鼓励。 当你累时，我会一直鼓励你。 当你有想放弃的念头，我会一直为你打气，希望你不会那么轻易就放弃。当你感到很孤独时，我会在你身偏，陪伴着你。虽然我忙了一整天，感到非常疲倦，但是当你需要我的陪伴时，我还是会在你身偏。
那当我需要你时，你在哪里？
我也跟你一样需要那一点点的关心和爱护。 我并不要求多， 一点点我就满举了。我这一小小的要求，对你来说很幸苦吗？
我好傻，我既让还希望你会很体谅我现在的感受， 会对我体贴一点。 我到底是怎么了？怎么可能会有这样的想法呢？我还不知道你是个怎样人吗？可能这次真的是我错了吧。我不应该对你要求太多。。
Have I not done enough to make you feel loved & cared for? Or have I not suffered enough from all that I'm going through right now to lessen your burden?
When I was in pain, where were you?
When I was in a foul mood, where were you?
When I was lost, where were you?
When I was crying like mad fuck, where were you?
When I was feeling very unhappy, where were you?
When I was starving just so we have enough to spend, where were you?
When I slogged my guts out just so you needn't give me allowance, where were you?
When I had a million & one things to tell you about, where were you?
When I needed you here just so I could cry till my heart's content, where were you?
When I needed you to guide me before I see light, where were you?
When I needed comfort, where were you?
When my hands were all coated with dried up extra sticky super glue, where were you?
Where were you?
Just a little love, a wee bit of attention, care & concern, it doesn't hurt that much, does it? But right now I see it.
Never will I think this way ever again..
It brought me more pain than I ever thought it would.
I'm not gonna let this false hope get into me again. I'm just to pretend like I'm alone in this life like it was before I met you. This would probably make living this life easier for me. Less pain, less false hope, lesser nights spent on wasting tears on you.
Tomorrow, I'll be still me but a brand new one.
Labels: chinese, emotional ramblings, rant, tuesday
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