Thursday, March 6, 2008
? Oh you foolish worker bee, I'm your fucking queen ¿
"A thousand words, but none were spoken, guess there's nothing left to say. Another dream just got broken, guess things just turn out that way."
Brian McKnight's 6 Months, 8 Days, 12 Hours on repeat.
The more I view her profile and her photos, the more I feel like crying. It's good to know that she's much happier now. It's good to know that she still remembers me. It's good to know she actually came by to view.
But it's never good to know that this once wonderful friendship ended this way.
I hid the photo album of ours into another folder that I don't always open so I won't see our happy faces together. I stopped reading your blog & her blog 'cos so much of her reminds me of you. Pink walls reminds me of you. I hate passing by your condo 'cos I know we had fun at your place on two occasions. I avoid going to the Mac's outlet near your place that we visited that very day 'cos everything we talked about, everything we did, everything we shared, they just keep playing back like how the mixtape kept playing. Even now, as I type this, memories of you & I are still playing as the tears flow like a long river.
I didn't know you meant so much 'til today.
And that very moment when I realised, I just wished you never meant so much to me.
Over the course of umpteen months, you changed so much. That cigarette on your hand in that photo tells me so much. I don't deny I did change too. Both good & bad changes. I hope you're doing good now & still hope someday I'll hear from you again..
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I spent the whole of today playing Sims 2 & doing up images for the shop. Don L died in Sims2, no more woohoo for the girls :( Dustin Broke moved out. Beau Broke moved out too. Now the Broke family is left with Brandi & Dayian (he's gonna grow up t become like Don L haha 'cos I made him this way). I can't seem to play the Goth family. The whole game hangs after it finished loading. B asked me to try playing the Ven(blah)villa 'cos there's this family that has got a huge gorgeous house. I shall try tomorrow :}
I haven't download my songs yet. I've got a bloody long list to download. NC, go online, text/nudge me. I've got a lot of emo songs to send you. Just enough for you to emo the whole night.
Life's all about the things you'll never figure out.
I can't agree more with the above line. Sigh..
If anyone's interested in joining the Fredflare spree, here it is on sprees_sg. Drop me a mail if you need help.
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So someone called to make me feel better (: I'm heading to the IT fair tomorrow. I hope I don't sulk anymore. Saturday will be spent with the beloved baby of mine. Buy new phone buy new phone buy new phone!! Daddy managed to argue with that lady who served him for $50 Hello! shop voucher! And I'm gonna sign for the free unlimited sms plan! Dinner with the family at Apollo Centre (again) for some prize-giving shit, bleh :(
tata xx
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Labels: emotional ramblings, friends, thursday
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