Thursday, February 7, 2008
? For that smile & those eyes, I'm falling ¿
The things I've done and the places I've been don't compare to the love I'm in.
I've got photos, I'll upload them when I'm less busy & frustrated.
I thought the first day of Chinese New Year was gonna turn out great, better than last year. It changed my mind a few minutes ago.
Yknow what they say about the first day of Chinese New Year? If you start it on a bad note, there goes your entire year. You'll be haunt with bad luck all year round. So if this is the way you wanna start our fucking first Chinese New Year together, be that way.
I don't wanna bother, I should be indifferent. I don't know why should I try so hard to mend my ways, change myself to please you, to fit into your piece of jigsaw puzzle, to make you happy. Why should I crack my brain for days & weeks thinking what should I surprise you with this Vday, hoping it'd make up for all the other occasions that I've disappointed you with? Why should I waste two weeks of my bloody time missing sleep in order to complete the gift?
Why?
Because I can't bear to & I don't like to see you unhappy.
Because you still matter after all that you've done to upset me.
Because you're the love of my life.
Because I love you.
I love you so, so much.
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Red packet collection was fruitful :) My parents are allowing me to keep the amount I collect this year but they've been reminding me not to spend unnecessarily. I know I know.. Earning money is not easy, I've learnt that so really, no worries. Like I mentioned in my previous entry, no more overspending and online shopping. I mean, less of online shopping :} Heh
Our bodies twist like shoe laces & we never came untied♥
Great-grandmother's place tomorrow morning then off to Aunt Shirley's place :) Second day is usually very mundane :/ I'm just gonna waste my whole afternoon with the kids. I'll probably bring some movies over to watch. Nono, finish up the present to kill time. (I'm quite contradicting. No, I'm very contradicting.) My eyelids are gonna kiss. I'm going to hit the sacks. Sleep tight now, my love :)
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all.
Labels: chinesenewyear, emotional ramblings, rant, thursday
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